Never Sleeps

While a pastor on the Fort Berthold Reservation I was honored with the Indian name, "NeverSleeps". It was primarily because I was often responding to particular needs in the middle of the night.

Even more relevant, the Lord Himself, Maker of all, "Never Sleeps".

Surely you know.
Surely you have heard.
The Lord is the God who lives forever,
who created all the world.
He does not become tired or need to rest.
No one can understand how great his wisdom is.

Isaiah 40:28

Welcome to every reader. I am a simple follower of Jesus. He is perfect, I often fall short.

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Thursday, March 23, 2023

His Favorite People are Pilgrims

His Favorite People are Pilgrims

His favorite people are pilgrims,
some solitary, others in twos and threes.
His favorite roads are dusty, just outside
Jerusalem or
Oklahoma City.
He knows they have been plundered,
he has seen their limps and empty pockets.
But he would walk with no one else,
hold his tongue with no one else,
unveil the shadows with no one else,
than those
who journey five or ten or a hundred miles
in a day.
Rocks are their pillows,
stray dogs and cats their fellows,
and they shop for food at farmstands along the way.

Sometimes the rain feels like sloppy snowflakes,
sometimes it quenches like a cold draught of beer.
Sometimes the rain nourishes the roses and onions,
sometimes the rain is steam rising from an asphalt highway.

They talk slowly, their numbers are in flux.
Companions at heart, but known for only hours,
some dance like puppies, some shrink like soldiers
who still cannot hear the symphony’s percussion without
holding their ears.

One (or maybe all) find their inner chamber filled with
specters, unruly guests of the past. The same one (or maybe
everyone) fears what lies behind the
locked door at the farthest reaches of their heart. They
know what abides there,
they fear it is still alive there,
and tremble to think of turning the key.

Are we locked outside? Or imprisoned within?
Can it open from in and out? Does the combination work
on both sides of the door?

His favorite people are pilgrims,
some lonely, others solitary and free.
Their feet stir up the same dust, their journeys
wind between street signs and churches,
up to caverns of quiet, down to valleys where rivers
sing with question marks left open.

Sometimes the conversation is revealing,
sometimes it is more human than healing.
Sometimes the silence nourishes the love and vision,
sometimes the trek is a memory

And shame is finally
a place to unlock hidden closets emptied
long ago.

Monday, December 21, 2015

You Speak to Me

You Speak to Me


(“Then he (Jesus) went up on a mountain where he could be alone and pray. Later that evening, he was still there.” Matthew 14:23)

I don’t think I could stay there all night,
in fact, I tried once, and ended up eating donuts before dawn.
There is so much power,
so much I could tell if only I could keep my feet
on the final swell from midnight till daylight.
I don’t know why I could not stay longer
with the one who,
I don’t know why,
loved me. But my mind is a prison

Of carousels and mosquitos that demand my attention.
I could excuse my thinnest moments on Your invisibility,
yet I can imagine the length and breadth of love or passion,
debates and conversations that never end. Arguments I’ll
never resolve
play merry-go-round, beginning, end, middle and then
starting someplace or other again. And the insects gnaw at
my best intentions; buzzing like radar, stinging like zeroes
and biting the truth in two.

Yet the moments when, at last, the mechanics of my mind
brake uphill and stop turning, when the gates have closed and
all conversation ceases, the quiet is dense as chocolate cream.
Frightening silence when half a newspaper, swirled by the breeze,
interrupts my reverie. The moments when the firing neurons
take their nap and leave my tiny spirit alone, the whisper of truth
which had hovered there all along, takes me hostage untethered
to a hiding place of lucidness, a cavern lit from within;


Those are when, a minute, an hour now hardly matter. For
I have heard the words I quivered to know,
thought myself unworthy to know,
and bow down, or leap up, or walk about or seek the star;
all are the delight of the solitary moments when
You speak to me.