Never Sleeps

While a pastor on the Fort Berthold Reservation I was honored with the Indian name, "NeverSleeps". It was primarily because I was often responding to particular needs in the middle of the night.

Even more relevant, the Lord Himself, Maker of all, "Never Sleeps".

Surely you know.
Surely you have heard.
The Lord is the God who lives forever,
who created all the world.
He does not become tired or need to rest.
No one can understand how great his wisdom is.

Isaiah 40:28

Welcome to every reader. I am a simple follower of Jesus. He is perfect, I often fall short.

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Saturday, July 18, 2026

Destroyed in an Hour

Destroyed in an Hour

(“All these riches have been destroyed in one hour!” Revelation 18:17a)

You thought you would stand forever, didn’t you.
All the reports showed your finances were strong,
your ledger was balanced on the best side of your fortune.
The birds stopped mocking you, the dogs lapped at your feet,
the acolytes lined up by the hour to praise your silvery age
like it was the highest building, like its final floor reached
above heaven.

You spent your spare time circling the globe, you were
given trinkets made of gold. You imagined lines and lines of
supplicants waiting for you to speak the magic words that
would turn their lives around. They knew you were the poverty
breaker
and wanted to be captured by your unnatural mission. They
were certain there was a secret equation that would turn the
water to wine, their tears to diamonds, and their disappointments
to opalescent stained-glass windows that let the golden rays
fall across the paltry collections of misguidance they
had invested their time to believe.

You survived the earthquakes; you held on when the markets
tanked.
You laughed at the storm that leveled everything within
miles of your epicenter. You were untouchable. You were
slippery and had closed every deal with your fingers crossed
behind your back. If someone failed when you pulled the rug
out from under them,
you told them they had simply picked the wrong place to stand.

But there were pests you did not see, insects that lived between
the cash and the plastic you stored behind the walls of
infamous portraits. The agreements you forced you forgers to
sign soon ran out of time. They payoffs you slipped into the
hands of the survivors weren’t enough to keep them from finally
speaking the earth-shattering truth.

Your money stayed intact. In fact, your accounts became bloated,
but too many people now, fooled for so long, began to prophecy the
crash of the one who the world had called beyond and completely
blessed. You crashed as your ego shattered; your scruples were the
first to go.

When your deals shriveled, you swiveled and found
no one was left on the opposite side of your lavish mahogany
desk. Your conscience was seared and you blamed it all,
the meteoric rise and the asteroidal downfall, on
lies a flunky or two had started and could not be stopped.

Briefly you rebounded. But within the hour everything
you built for your name and leisure was over. You could
admit it if you wanted. You could heal from the haunted
cobwebs that left your mind, so deceived and diseased,
that you stood on the first floor and opened the door while
weeping that your reach had receded like a dirge from a person
that no one knew.

Wednesday, January 22, 2020

More Time on the Ground


alone old green rubber shoe on dirty cement ground
More Time on the Ground

(“Or you think nothing of the riches of his goodness, patience, and longsuffering? And remember not how it is that the kindness of God leads you to repentance?” Romans 2:4)

Take it like a man; as if he can.
Splayed out like a mud pie after rain
he begins his story with dripping explanation.

It was all I could do to wipe the darkness away.

They made their plans to make him strong.
They knew what was wrong and why, then
interpreted
his every moved like inspectors with magnifying glasses,
never seeing both of his eyes crying at the same time.
He offered few excuses.

Time has been longer and steeper than I planned.

Hunt like us, shoot like us, shout like us, grunt like us;
as if he was made that way.
He loved numbers as much as they did, but loved the
mountains more.

There was more stumbling than I wanted; more time on the ground.

They gave him chance after chance, enhanced their techniques
to pull all the darkness out of the man. They stood him up white-
faced
and patted him down in public.

There was more sin than you knew, but I sinned less than you thought.

Once he went years without a phone call, without a smile or the
embrace of men. Twice he wished it would never happen again.
And crowds froze him to the spot while he scourged the scars
that remained and reminded him why he deserved
to be alone.

Some days I checked the mail more than once.

His heart had ached from adolescence. He longed for the
glance, the gaze, that welcomes everything. And sometimes
he saw it when it wasn’t there. And sometimes, blinded by the sting,
he would not partake of the table offered him.

Do you know something about me that will make you turn away?

All he wants is to be held by love, like tea in a prewarmed cup.

Saturday, May 3, 2014

With Love to the Offended

With Love to the Offended

“Oh, the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgments and unfathomable His ways!” Romans 11:33

Do not ever promise to shave your head as an incentive for
Sunday School attendants to bring more friends. A promise of 50,
and the shepherd would be shaved bald; except for one small matter.

Sitting midweek, as he makes his practice, with six and sometimes twelve
teenage students, he announced the same; no hair would remain, if they would
bring enough friends to break our goal of 50. “Oh no, Pastor”, they cringed.
“Don’t cut your hair.”

The Pastor, it should be noted, now nearly 60, was finally of an age where
most people would refrain from pointing out the impropriety of preaching holy
writ
with a ponytail. Ladies over 80 also enjoyed his curls.

So, with resistance from his teenage friends, the pastor thought a change may be
in order. “You choose the color, then,” and I will dye my hair for 50! Bright eyes
combined with school-girl squeals and the answer was moot.

Except for the few and more who come through the door on Sunday mornings.
The pastor shared his story from the teen-table and asked for a vote-by-applause.

“Shaved bald”: Are you ready? Applaud!
“Dyed hair”: Are you ready? Applaud!

Twice over we voted, unsure, the noise nearly indistinguishable. For the pastor’s ear, and his better judgment, he felt the loudest, by a mere fraction of a decibel, went to the “dye your hair”
syndicate: and it was done.

No hair was lost, nor was any painted. That year the attendance fainted short of the goal…
but…

It was discovered, laughable and weepable, one couple never returned, looking for another
place to learn Jesus’ ways because who can follow a pastor who does not keep his word.

Unfathomable! Might I call a handful of humans the very same?

Let me address You, unsearchable One. I am trying my best. I have stumbled like the rest. Why do people love cause pain, leave church, act inhumane and suppose they are the more righteous,
after all. For they never promised to shave their heads and change it to a possible rainbow updo.
Judged, perhaps. Ranted, and time ellapses between their better-hair judgments and the next
Sunday when more love and power, compassion, the Flower from the Hillsides that beautifies
our every action, if only we let Him.

Dearest depths, let me wade in Your wisdom, because that pastor I described is weeping at
the ways one more person has trodden upon his offered heart.
The pain is scream-less. The harm is one more bone broken for the 12th time in the same place
again.
Dearest riches, now I need Your knowledge because He is a half step closer to never mentioning
the name of Jesus from a pulpit ever again.